Sleep has always been a struggle for me but now its getting worse and worse and at times to much to handle.

I was once so strong but now you have broken me. You have pulled everything away from me and i'm left with a mess. I dunno maybe i ask for it, esp because i keep doing it to myself but i don't know how to be the old strong me anymore.

I'm the kind of girl who can get fucked over a million times and will still keep coming back. I dunno maybe i like pain. If i see something that hurts my feelings ill go back and look at it, ill keep replying it in my head until i cant anymore. Its like i expect it so much now that i cant help but want it to happen.

It kinda sucks when everyday apart you have to worry about what the other one is up to. Weather you can believe anything or question yourself on really how much they care and want to put into this.

Its hard to think that the more i think the more i realize, i am losing every single person i once trusted. Every few weeks i am left to learn that no matter how much faith you have in a person at the end of the day all you really have it yourself and that's something i'm struggling to come to terms with at the moment.

Watching you box this weekend was such an inspiration. It gives me hope and courage that i can aspire to complete my goals in the near further. Knowing you were fighting for such a awesome cause just amazes me so much, you are so strong and sorted. Nothing can break you! Your truly aspiring.

Watching someone i care about spiral down into dark places is truly hard to watch. Whats even harder is doing that i will have to be the one to open her up into the light and send her in helps direction. This is going to be so hard but its something i cant turn a blind eye on any longer :(

I need a break. Someone take me far away from here

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